For those of you asking yourselves “what is Year of You”? I have your answer. It’s really about bettering yourself and making what you need to be. Year of You was started by a youtuber named Marissa Lacer, or “MarissaLace” on youtube when she was going through a bad breakup and she felt she had lost herself in 2015. In 2016 she really focused on herself and what she needed and encouraged her followers to do the same.
At the beginning of 2016, I was a personal sales business owner and was convinced that it was finally going to be ‘my year’. I was finally going to make some money and build my savings, I was going to get great grades, get skinny, and maybe even find love. For a while, I was making good money in my business and was doing well for myself (except for the fact that I know nothing about managing money and running a business), I did have a health kick that last a whole week, and I thought I did- or had the potential to find love.
Eventually, I hit a wall with my business and now looking back about a year ago, I was suffering from anxiety and I let it get the better of my and my business and by summer 2016 I was inactive with the company. Anxiety also got the better of me with my school work and I found myself not being able to focus in school and shutting down every time I had a large assignment due. This caused me to end up on academic probation and would cause further damage down the road.
I started dating during the winter of 2016 and had been going on different dates with a few unspecial guys. One guy in particular seemed to stand out to me and we started spending more and more time together. Eventually a couple of unspecial guys turned into one special guy and I was falling fast. We dated for a few weeks until he finally told me he had been calling me his girlfriend to his friends and I was shocked. That had never happened to me, and I was enamored. We were together practically every minute that we weren’t working or when I wasn’t in school. We met each other’s friends and parents and things seemed good – until they weren’t. One day he brought up over text that he would be too busy in the fall and wouldn’t really have time to see me. I argued that I also would be busy but we could carve out time to see each other at least once a week, as I have weekends off. He insisted and that was the end. I was so broken over this quick little relationship I had, but for the first time in basically forever I had someone that cared about me and called me beautiful and wanted to spend all of his time with me. I realized after we broke up that I completely lost myself because I boy decided he didn’t want to date me anymore and I absolutely hated that. I don’t want to be the girl that falls apart because of a boy, yes it happens, and yes it’s okay, but to lose myself and feel so down on myself because of it scared the sh** out of me. So at the beginning of 2017 I got a sign and Marissa started a facebook group for other girls that also wanted to change their lives and focus on them. The posts have been uplifting and have inspired me to be the best version of myself.
I’m not going to lie. I think 2016 was the worst year of my life.2017 hasn’t actually started off too great either but I’ve found a supportive group of people through Marissa’s Year of you movement and I’m taking time for myself and focusing on myself and it’s exactly what I need right now. More year of you posts to come – let me know what you think!